Thursday, February 27, 2014

The Snow Child


It’s been a harsh winter here in New England.  As you may know if you follow this blog, I was born in Miami and seem to biologically lack the ability to cope with cold, which in turn leads to a fair amount of grousing from October through May.  Yet as Mother Nature dumped more and more (and then still more) snow on us this year, I found myself compelled to re-read some seasonal favorites.  The very best of these is The Snow Child by Eowyn Ivey.
Homesteading in Alaska Territory in 1920, Mabel and Jack are willfully isolated, trying to forget the stillborn infant that came after too many failed attempts to conceive a child.  When they play in the snow one night, building a tiny snow person and wrapping a scarf around its neck, the joy in their marriage seems equal to the sorrow they’ve endured.  And when, shortly after, they spy a little girl running through the woods, miles from civilization, their adventure and the unfolding of a series of beautiful - and harsh - love stories is only beginning. 
The Snow Child is Eowyn Ivey’s debut novel, released in 2012 to well-deserved acclaim.  It is simply stunning.  She seems to intrinsically understand how to weave language and story together in a way that perfectly suits the fairy tale she is telling - a tale at turns brilliantly joyful and heartrendingly dark.  The Snow Child easily holds even the likes of me in thrall with the stark and unforgiving Alaskan winter, for there is an undercurrent of magic running throughout.
If one must watch snow fall ceaselessly outside, best to do it curled by the window, with blankets and tea and the crackle of a wood fire, lost in the pages of this treasure of a tale.
{If you don’t already own this book, treat yourself by clicking here.}

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Pee Your Panties




Every now and then I come across a blog that makes me laugh out loud and pee in my panties just a little.
Well, okay, sure.  Sometimes I pee in my panties just a little because that’s the sort of shit that happens when you’re forty, have given birth, and run half marathons.  But that’s probably also too much information…so…
Once again, thanks to the miracle of Facebook and friends who post excellent stuff, I have stumbled upon a gem.  Words by the Glass.  This is a blog by a woman who invites readers to “become acquainted with my life long love affair with Lloyd Dobbler and my irrational fear of swing sets,” and warns that you should, “take caution. Some of my crazy might stick in your brain. It sure as hell sticks in mine.”
My kind of gal.
Her post on the 2014 Victoria’s Secret swim catalog - and its arrival in the midst of Girl Scout cookie season - struck a fabulous chord with me.  I’ve recently lost 15 lbs. (due to a combination of flu and personal life drama; hell knows, I couldn’t pull that off if I’d actually been trying), and there is still no way you will ever see me in anything in that VS catalog.  You know, unless it’s for one of those fundraising things where I run a 5k in a humiliating ensemble for the sake of a good charitable cause.  Otherwise, as a public service to humankind - my teenage son chief among y’all - the only way anyone will be seeing my butt crack on the beach is if my sporty L.L. Bean mom-suit rides up.
This, I think, is as it is meant to be.
I’m looking forward to summer as much as anyone.  Maybe even more so than anyone, given that recent fifty-degree days with mere glimpses of sunshine inspired me to launder beach towels and dig flip-flops out of the closet.  I’m a summer girl at heart, and a kid in my soul.
But my ass?  That’s forty years old, and I know it.  
Rest assured, I’ll keep the cellulite in its place.
{For Girl on a Wire posts you missed between 2012 and now, visit me on Tumblr.  And while you wait for beach days, check out the post below.  Laugh - and pee your panties a little - with me.}

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Birthday Girl

“With mirth and laughter let old wrinkles come.” 
― William Shakespeare


Happy Birthday to me!  

I'm thirty-nine years old today.  I know, as a woman, I am not supposed to admit my age.  People are funny about getting older, women especially so.  I guarantee that when I speak to my mother later today, she will say she has no idea how I can be thirty-nine when she still is.  It's one of those things.

But honestly?  I'm psyched to be thirty-nine.  I'm even so looking forward to forty that I've already begun planning my big four-oh party.  I just don't dread birthdays the way some do.

Sure, I know what some of you will say: give it a few years.  And maybe you'd be right.  Maybe forty-nine will sting.  Or fifty-nine.  Or eighty-two.  

At the moment, all I feel is curiosity about those coming years.  What will I be like at eighty-two?  I know I'd like to be one of those badass, wonderfully-crusty old chicks who refuses to act her age.  I picture myself at eighty-two as weathered and freckled, with shockingly short white hair, spending mornings SUP boarding or kayaking or swimming in salt water, maybe finally winning some 5Ks or triathlons just because I'm the only one left in my age category.  I imagine looking back on a life of love and laughter, full of crazy stories of adventures lived and risks taken and opportunities seized, one after another and another.  I love the idea of standing before the mirror and seeing my grandmothers, only cooler.

Last night, I was looking through some family photos, images from my parents' childhoods right up through this past summer.  I was struck by how quickly a lifetime flies by, even for those who make it to an age where, when they pass, folks can say, "She had a full life."

My father died suddenly at age sixty.  Sixty used to seem impossibly old to me, but now I understand just how young that is.  I will never know what my father looked like as an old man, because he never got there.  The wonderful laugh lines that crinkled the corners of his eyes and the gray at his temples were brand-new when he went out for a run and was felled by a tiny little blood clot.

Even more wrenchingly, last week a quiet town in Connecticut was blindsided by violence and left with twenty small children who will never grow up.  No more birthdays.  Never a fear of wrinkles or gray hair.  Not even close.

I'm thirty-nine years old today.  

What a blessing.